January 2nd, 2011











We are never the worse for our dreams…

—Lyn Hejinian

Dreaming of a Happy new Year with lots of creativity and lively dreaming!

One day off,

Last week I got three.  This week one.  We had time to go to the jewelry store to have them fix the prongs on my engagement ring, which he said are all needing replaced.  I figured out one of them needed repair when it was bent one day at work.  We walked around Octoberfest quickly and grabbed a bite to eat.  Then I was on home duty while Scott slept and we worked on Halloween things.  JJ’s pumpkin carving contest is on his mind on Monday at the Boy Scouts, so we started on that tonight.  Rachel had a good day with the Girl Scouts’, taking a Fall Stroll. She came back singing new songs.  I made mac and cheese for the kids, and bran muffins for me.  Cleaned out the car and the fridge.  Downloaded a bunch of pictures and froze up the computer many times.  And here we are.  Still have a couple of things to do and some sleep to bank for tomorrow.  Then next Saturday, I’ll be ready for another day off. By then it will be almost Halloween! I am hoping I will have time to sneak a peak at the home makeover’s work tomorrow and time to edit my pictures during the week.  The pace at work has been at times much better for almost a week.  This week the weather will be warmer, and soon St John’s psych unit will be open!

First of all there is a tiny tiny golden fish in the tank, perhaps the span of evil.  But he is nice and shy for now.

Then the other night, Scott got tired of the current fish situation, and flushed evil when the kids weren’t looking.

Had to come to the toilet when they yelled that Evil was in it swimming around.  He said, “wow he is alive! amazing I thought he was dead!”

too funny.  He is back outside the aquarium watching and swimming in his jelly jar. I am concerned about our plumbing.


“Whoever desires to love life
and see good days,
let him keep his tongue from evil
and his lips from speaking deceit;
11let him turn away from evil and do good;
let him seek peace and pursue it.
12For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous,
and his ears are open to their prayer.
But the face of the Lord is against those who do evil.”

1 Peter 3:8-18

Good Vs Evil

We have the aquarium set up and are all enjoying picking  the fish, watching the fish, and occasionally replacing the fish.There was a large Platty who Rachel picked out as one of our first fish who seemed to be chasing and nipping at everyone else. The kids named him Evil.  We started to suspect his involvement when someone turned up lifeless in the morning and when others would hide all day.  I took him out for a while and placed him in a dish.  The kids put him back. 

I told the fish store lady we had an aggressive Platty.  She asked if I knew if he was a male.  um, no.  We got him a girlfriend in case that was the problem, but his behavior did not change.  He is Evil and everyone else seems to be Good.  We can’t take him back, unfortunately and can’t throw him back into our tank of living victims.  So he sits off to the side of the aquarium for now thwarted in his attempted intimidation and murders.  The kids like to give him another chance now and then, but he probably can not be rehabilitated.  Another small aquarium would be too much money for a fish with a bad reputation and an unknown lifespan although I am temped to buy him a nicer place for his confinement. Which leads us to the ultimate question: How do we treat evil we can no longer avoid.  Is flushing justified?


Trying to get going to enjoy a trip to the stores all alone. Enjoying the quiet and concentration as I do so. Sort of blah with neck aches and toothaches and a lot to do. Missing my blog as it misses me. It has been hard to shift gears from getting our living room back together, to a more balanced life. ALl the books came out of the bookshelf one night when I went to work…and none of mine went back in. So much of my brain was off kilter, which was not the result of tripping over them everytime I needed a stamp for my bills or a pen, but might as well have been. Then I couldn’t move any into my work- book-bookcase because it was crumpling apart underneath the fish tank. So finally that was replaced and restocked. And I was able to get the fiction and nonfiction stacked t deep into the old entertainment center/new bookcase. Then we could walk. Last night I finally got the last few back in order and now there is only a couple of hunded cd’s to find a home for. Off to find them a storage box. I’ve gotten two closets cleaned and a jump on putting back the winter clothes and grabbing a couple more blankets for the winter weather which is hiding in the depths of the fall air.

By Wednesday night still working on it, but getting better.


Walking and Photos

By now, I’ve walked over 90 miles in a circular fashion, in place, and in square block formations.  I also counted a couple of yoga sessions as slow walking because they are haaaard, haaaarder than walking and it works for me. 

I had a nice weekend with the kids and husband.  Friday we cleaned house and went to check out Chicken Annie’s in Pittsburg, Kansas.  Iwas not great but was a good change of pace and the kids certainly liked fried chicken and fries.  Saturday we hung around, went to the community center and listened to it rain rain rain.  Sunday/ Today we went to church, read the Sunday paper and went to the movies to see spy kids in 3D.  Not too horrible really.  The rain seems to have passed now leaving wet and calm behind. 

Looking at my dairy- free cookbook for another recipe for tomorrow.  So far so good with theirs.  We had a very rich white sauce for our pasta the other night that the rest of the brave family could add parmesan cheese to…  It had soy milk and tofu blended up and thickened with some flavoring and stuck to my ribs like a real high fat sauce should.  And I made dairy-free baked donuts/ turned cupcakes just in case anyone was going to starve. 

Here are some photos along the beach at Ocean City the first afternoon that we hit the beach. 8/4/2011.  As you can see there was a lighthouse with a long walk or catwalk out to it to explore.


made it 7 days in a row. Feels good, looks better.  Now to get back to it.